erstwhilesky:

One of the weirdest parts of depression is knowing objectively that if your brain was working properly, you’d be having an emotional response to something, but instead you feel completely blank. I don’t have this all the time, but when it happens it’s a very strange experience. Even weirder when you can pretend to have the right reaction, but inside you just feel like a robot trying to approximate what you know a human should act like. I’ve been living with depression for a long time and I know how to weather this stuff, but it never stops being weird.